( FUN ISTHE BABBLE FISH OF JOYOUSNESS! )

For now, I'm moving to ModBlog. Although it doesn't have the same update formatting as LJ does, it's a lot easier to customize and has much more to offer than LiveJournal. I'd reccomend it to anyone at all.

My new blog is...

Wings of Glass

If you look up "idiot" in the dictionary, you're going to find this person, who recently reviewed the more Ella Enchanted.

( Read ahead and feel my pain... )

*implodes* OMIGAWD! I get to try for the CONCERT BAND! O_O

I had a playing test today (I completely forgot about it until seconds before) and I did so well! Excuse my ditzy-sounding language but... LIEK TOTALLI WOA! (ha) It was a hard piece too... and I've only been playing for a little while. (1/3 of grade nine second semester and half of this year's semester) My teacher told me I got a 4+ and invited me to try out for the concert band along with two others (who have been playing for longer than I AND have experience in piano, by the way)

It's nothing certain, but I'm fecking proud of myself!

*deep breath*...eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Okay, I'm done. *squees* SQUEE!

I'm correct, there's no doubt now.

What does this mean? It certainly changes everything we know in the universe, but what does it mean for me?

I need to write a speech that's due tomorrow, last period. I am supposed to write as if I am Antony (or Brutus) trying to persuade the people to believe my point of view on Caesar's death. I'll have to read it in front of the class and I must to do well.

Problem: I'm not good with prepared speeches. Not in the least bit... I get nervous minutes before I must speak. I panic completely. I used to just get out of it and not present somehow, but I know that won't work tomorrow. I could get an extension, but I'd still have to present.

I have an uncertain feeling though, that I am not as inable as I believe. More often am I pressed toward these kinds of presentations... as if God is willing me to try it out. I know that I will be a leader soon. All of my skills tell me this... I await a crisis, because I preform best in that sort of situation. Why? Destiny, perhaps... though I've never been one to give fate an easy match.

( on a completely different note )

I love the uncertainties within math. I love the mystery. Things are so simple, so logical... yet we know so little. The tiny amout of math we understand is the programming of the universe. The program that is reality. The reality that is our world. Numbers tell us a lot about this world. Things seem to fit together so well. Such as these...

( number sequences I've dared to ponder )

Stolen from Ann (chaoticskies ) Please fill this out if you haven't already. ^_^

( A Two Step Plan for Christmas Happiness. )

I somehow managed to finish my music composer assignment within the two hours I had last night. I don't know how, but I got that thing in on time...

Nothing much more to report, I'm afraid. Other than, How to Kill a Mockingbird is the best book report ever given. It starts out sounding real, but wait and you'll see the insanity.

We drove by some construction today on the way to Chapters; there were some large concrete barriars to block the traffic. Written on one of them was, "DANGER: DO NOT HIT, WILL HURT"

Really? Wow, thank you for that helpful warning; I would never have guessed. *makes a sarcasim sandwich* It really makes you wonder, doesn' it?

This is the freakiest flash game I have ever played. I got as far as finding CSR Kimberly and getting 10/10 photos... No save option, but now that I know how it works, I'm going to win.

I got the drunk to say, "Abandon all hope, ye who enter here." Is that Dante? I need to get him to quote Dante...

By the way, if you attempt this game, do not be fooled by the red girl walking. The puzzles are not there, look deeper. Only the most observant and curious will get past that puzzle and any others along the way. Also, watch the clues and remember the passage of time.

Have fun WALKING IN CIRCLES
(click the link that says walkies? to start)

( two perspectives )

I worry that things are moving too quickly. I have so much I need to acomplish and so much I still have to learn. I'm still not sure what's right for me and how that relates to what's right for the world. In less than three years I'll be going to university. I'm at a crossroads... I can go intellectual or emotional. I can go scientist or councellor. I can seek truth beyond my mind or beyond my abilities.

I don't know where to go or what to seek or why. It could be the most important decision I will ever make. Who will I become? How will I influence the world?

Will I even have a chance? Times are changing... I've seen the affects already.

( more emode )

It's official; I need to switch to acedemic math. If I want to go to university and get a bachelor of science (along with any higher education) I have to take acedemic math. If I stay in applied there is no way I'll be able to do it.

I'm not bad at math... I've only been lead to believe that I am. My grade four teacher had a funny way of teaching the subject to me. If I didn't finish my homework for one night she'd add more for the next. Obviously this created a pattern that was impossible to get out of; the work just kept piling up and getting more complicated as the others learned without me. Soon I was made to work on it at the back of the classroom during other subjects and eventually I was left out of field trips and library visits and recess. I decided then that I must be too stupid for math, that there must be something wrong with me or with math. From then on I hated it and dreaded that class, getting frustrated easily when I could concentrate before.

Mrs. Opas ruined my math skills. I can just imagine what it'd be like now if I hadn't had her as a teacher. God... if only.

I'll have to start over. I need to work on... well, everything. It's mostly just memorization, right? I can do simple addition in my mind, but I need to see subtraction, multiplication, and (especially) division.

I don't think I can do it... but I have to. Hey, Einstein was bad at math and he was brilliant.(though he did have an advanced brain, if I recall correctly)

...hm...

The Official String Theory Website

Dark Matter Home Page

Stephen Hawking's Website

Indigo is bring out my inner nerd. How ironic.

It's hard to shift between the two... I'm more Indigo than I when I was fully Indigo! So, don't mind me if I prattle on about quantum physics (SQUEE) or mourn about my 77% average (SOB)... just ignore me. I'll find a balance sooner or later... or I'll bore everyone with my phyliosophy, unless I drain all my energy first. *sigh* But that's just the indigo talkin', so don't worry. I'm self-focused right now...

BUT SQUEE! NEUTRINOS! BUTTER KNIFE! QUANTA OF LIGHT! ASTROPHYSICS! GENERAL RELATIVITY! GRAVITATIONAL WAVE DISTORTIONS! SUPERSTRING THEORY! PLASTIC SPORK!

Ow! FOOT CRAMP! O_< *twitch*

Heh... just had to get that out of my system... *breathes*

This is ROCKING my STOCKINGS!

Queens University is THE BEST thing since SLICED BREAD! And I LOVE sliced bread! *hyperventilates* These... COURSES! O_O MY... BRAIN... HURTS! Overload of WONDERFULITYNESS! And this just the Physics Department...

I mean, seriously... Introductory Quantum Theory (PHYS 824) and Particle Physics (PHYS 892)? Extragalactic Astronomy (PHYS 434 or PHYS 418)??? *implodes* BEST COURSES EVER!

I wish I could learn this stuff now! I know... I'll buy a university textbook! I should be able to find one somewhere, even if it's old it'll still be filled with physic-y-goodness...

What Does it Matter?
By Laurel Chaisson

Each year we remember those that have died
in wars that achieve nothing, except to divide.
Their families and friends, were left behind to mourn
the loved-ones that, from their lives, were brutally torn.
What does it matter, who won in the end?
Both sides of the battle have hearts that won’t mend.

That poem isn't finished, but I like how it sounds so far. No matter what side of the war they were fighting for, each person had family who loved them... and both sides have emotions and hearts that break.

Got my mid-term report card today... here's the verdict:

English (academic) = 72%

Science (academic) = 75%

Music = 90% (weird, because I never handed in a single assignment until the last one, and that was late... O_o)

Civics = 63%

AVERAGE: 77% (AHH! It's not 80% at least! *hyperventilates then explodes... then explodes again*)

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